losing my insanity

I've decided against fleeing to Germany, and I'm not going to the school two hours out of town. Instead, I'm moving to Calgary! I applied to SAITs Baking and Pastry Arts program ('09/'10), found a place to crash (at Kitti's, my Uncle's ex-wife)(at least until I find some place better), and I'll be going out to Calgary at the end of April to apply for jobs. I'm hoping to make an awesome impression and get hired as an apprentice in a bakery. If that fails, I'll fall back on liquor stores and retail/CSR.

Even with paying monthly bills - rent, cell, laptop, website - I should be making more money in Calgary than here. We'll see what happens. I'm calling Kitti at the end of this week to discuss details on me crashing at her place for a bit. It'll be awkward since she's in her early 50s and... has a history of being un-reliable, not to mention her son (whom I obsessed over as a kid and was determined to marry, and I haven't seen in 12+ years) is currently living with her.

My family was surprisingly indifferent about me going. I was putting off telling them, because I thought they'd blow a fuse but... they really don't care. I even answered all questions they had and provided them with an outline of stuff I need to do before going and after arriving.

I really am sick of studying in a classroom. No matter how hard I try I'm just not the scholastic person. My family has a long history of trades and I guess I'm not the one to break the chain - but I enjoy baking, so here's hoping!

Yesterday I got my passport photos taken. I look like... a man. In the '70s. I can imagine Passport Canada calling me to confirm my gender :'( Normally, people confused over my gender wouldn't bother me but I'm really... not wanting to be lonely anymore. I hate being socially awkward. I hate my best friend telling me I look like an ugly man. Ugh, maybe I'll feel better once I get my tax return money in -- damn straight money can buy happiness!

It's almost been 2 years since I've had this journal. As much as I respect the past (but not really), I thought it was time for a slight rennovation. With the way 2008 started it seems this will be a year of transitioning and new beginnings - since January I've gotten rid of FireFox and installed Opera; begun on my Medical Office Assistant diploma; spent hundreds of dollars on a new wardrobe, and even made the decision to seriously consider getting a car. By car I mean MOJITO 150 from Aprilia or XF50 "C Cubed" from Yamaha.

Nothing much else to say. I've been spending way too many hours playing FF3... I need a hobby. Ooh, The Notorious Bettie Paige is on~!

[45] Dead Like Me
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